酒库～＊

It’s a nice day to me ^_^

Someone who had been behaving very abnormal these few days is coming back to normal ^_^
I chat in MSN with my brother and mother who i miss ^_^
I manage to download a very nice Nokia Ad (Will You Marry Me) clip from my beloved senior’s blog ^_^
And after I released my feelings in words, now I’m once again alive ^_^

Really have to thank you guys a lot ^_^

To those who come forward to send your regards and concerns, and to those who knew something’s wrong but just keep silence and leave me alone ^_^
My speech is especially for,

1. Jeff, my beloved brother, whom himself is suffering from relationship problem, and yet have to listen to my mumblessssssss ^_^
2. Akyo, my beloved big big brother, who read my blog and sms me, told me to be happy and that the world is beautiful ^_^
3. Fam, my “FaiCai” friend, who also read my blog and sms me while my FALAN II test had just start, and i have to let my Samsung phone keep vibrate in the pocket of my Google jeans @_@ She asked me am I ok, remind me not to go suicide and tell me to take care. I replied that, I won’t think of going suicide before she did =X
4. Fanny, a lovely girl, my beloved… what huh? Let it be sister =) She knew my problems from that BigMouth Jeff, afraid that i’ll be angry and came forward to me, hihi…
5. Yihu, my beloved younger brother, whom also knew my stuff from that BigMouth Jeff, came forward to me when I had already released my emotions in words and feeling better, saved  his energy and words, hihi…
6. Loon, my beloved… thanks for your willingness to spare your time to read and understand that 2 pages of MSWords long letter that i wrote to release my emotion
7. TC, an old friend + junior from Heng Ee’s St John, thanks for concerning ^_^
8. WanJoo, a first-sem junior who saw my eyes where swelling like gold-fish’s eyes @_@ and asked me what’s the time i slept at the day before =.=

I found that the best way for me to release tension is through words ^_^
So, forget about the god dam tears and the stupid so called CRYing, wasting my time and energy only :@ Who’s the one who said after crying will feel better one?! Step forward please!

Anyway, thanks a lot guys, for letting me know that there are so many people who are concern about me ^_^

Wishing you guys a happy day ^_^

原来，倔强不是一件好事…

原来，武装不是一件好事…

原来，软弱可以是件好事…

原来，哭泣可以是件好事…

原来…

阿学假如看见了这段文字，也许会说我终于“开窍”了吧？！

跟别人分享心事一直都并不是我的习惯。无论喜怒哀乐，往往只有自己知道。我想，大家都有自己的烦恼，何必再为别人的烦恼添加一条呢？原本是我一个人在烦，后来可能是五六个人在烦。这样，好吗？更何况，大家的思想和观念不一，人家未必明白我的想法。

哭泣一直都并不是我发泄的管道。眼泪流过后又如何？问题还不是一样存在？刻在心上的悲伤还不是一样的深？既然解决不了问题，那么何必浪费力气时间和精神去哭泣？而且假如被关心自己的人发现了，岂不是令人担心了吗？

最近终于发现，这倔强的性格让我翻遍了整个联络簿都找不到一个真正可以谈心的朋友…

我想找Ｊ聊，可是他前阵子才与爱人分手，还是不要为他增添烦恼吧…

我想找Ｋ聊，可是突然这样子会不会太唐突了点？算了吧…

我想找Ａ聊，可是好久没有找他，人家会以为我有问题才想起他吗？

我想找Ｓ聊，可是听说他最近交了女朋友，还是不要打扰人家吧…

我想找…

很可悲，不是吗？

后来，未免我一个人在房间胡思乱想，我到电脑室上网去了…

翻遍了整个ＭＳＮ　ｌｉｓｔ，可以谈心的人不在线…

然后，虽然很不想再让老弟增添烦恼，不过还是把事情淡淡地告诉他了…

眼泪好像很配合剧情那样的偎着脸颊滚下来…

好像发泄得不够…　失眠的我打开了电脑，用了两小时多把心里一切的一切以文字打下来…

眼泪当然也是一直流了又停，停了又流…

第二天醒来，也就是今天，我完全没有心情去上课…

我害怕自己的眼泪像昨天那样在课室里无法控制的滑下来…

我担心自己像昨天那样即使很专心的在听讲却一个字也听不进去…

结果，第一堂课我没去上了…　空出来的两小时，在一个人的房间了，我痛哭了一场…

是的，我让眼泪狠狠的流湿了我的枕头，我的袖子，还有我的毛巾…

第二堂课我也没去了…　我请求阿米代我签到…　然后独子的留在房里盘算着该做的事情

我真的累了…　我终于下定决心要赶快把问题解决，就在今晚。我会放肆的容许自己流泪直天明，然后告诉自己，这将是我为这件事情掉泪的最后一天，最后一次…

多么希望世上真的存在一种糖子，吃了可以让人快乐一辈子，不是吗？

好久没有更新ｂｌｏｇ了，呵～
刚刚，无意中在友人的ｂｌｏｇ里看到一段文字…　说是“无意中”因为真的不是特地去看那个ｂｌｏｇ的…　惭愧的说，是因为点错了，也因此发现一些小秘密，呵～

你懂为什么牵手会把一个女孩的心也给牵走吗？
答案是：掌心－　手掌的中间真的有一颗心。牵着牵着，手－　心也被牵走了

假如手掌中真的有一颗心，我想换一个说法…
当一个女孩愿意让你牵着她的手，就代表愿意把心交给你　^_^
这个说法，成立吗？